Saturday, October 13, 2012

It's The Little Things That Take Us Down

Sooo, we have a flat tire on our car. We don't even know how we got it. But, it is flat just the same. We live in a place where we don't know any people who live here. We have a little access to money, but now how do we get where we need to go? The nearest town is over 5 miles away, and the store to get a plug for it, is a few miles further.
You know, there was a time in my life when these problems would not have stopped me from doing anything, but today, this stopped me from doing everything. I was supposed to go shopping, and get food for the next week. We aren't out yet, because we did a couple "leftover" nights, so nothing will get critical for a few days. We are out of dog and cat food. But I can cook rice for them and add some leftovers to it, they'll love it.
A few years ago, if something like this happened I could call any of my friends and they would be right there. Since I just moved here, and haven't had the money to get out anywhere, I haven't met anybody, at all. No worries, I have facebook. Well that does fix the human conversational need, but the physical ones are glaring at me from the driveway right now.
We have been working to get a meeting together with some people to see about a some projects that could generate funding, and they finally were all able to get together tomorrow. Guess who asked for the meeting and can't get there now? I don't think they have skype, because I really did consider it. Now I had to embarrass myself because I can't get there, and had to expose the vulnerability of being helpless to people that I want to trust me and can show that I can handle things. I suppose I can take it as the universe trying to see how bad I want this, or stop me all together. All I know is not having access to resources makes life harder. We have to spend more energy finding solutions to otherwise pretty simple problems.
"Change the tire" you say? "Don't you have spare?"
Funny story, we did have a spare. We had a flat a few months back, when money started getting tight. A friend of ours cam and helped us change it because we didn't have a jack. I was all for putting the tire back underneath the truck. But dude was like "No, leave it out there and go get your tire fixed and then put it back on the car." And I was like "Oh your right, cuz I would forget it under there." We leaned the tire up against the wall of the house. Someone stole it.
I think that while there is an equal and opposite reaction to every action, we would be really naive to not understand that there are also a myriad of other responses to every stimulus.
I have some things to put together for a meeting I'm going to try and get to tomorrow. Wish me luck.

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